Reading other peoples' blogs is so enlightening and helpful. Just yesterday as I was reading a blog of one of the folks I like to follow, I read a comment left for her. It was trying very hard not to be confrontational while confronting and it was full of love, concern and truth as best I could tell and it was received that way as best I could tell.
The blogger was writing about not giving up, about pitfalls and stumbles ect.
The commenter was asking about the pitfalls of certain numbers. That is when i had my moment.
okay - so I have these quiet frequently and I am starting to learn that having them is one thing, assimilating them into reality and practice is different...but any way...
Commenter is pointing out and asking quite timidly - are there certain numbers on the scale that trip you up?
(YES! I shout! or when anyone says hey you look like you lost weight or when my new jeans feel kinda loose.)
Now I have breathing room - now I can fudge a little - WRONG! Now you are just starting to reach your goal - you have made a baby step don't bounce now! I was glad to know - I am not alone. Many of us, talking to me here, seem to have a threshold we can tolerate and when we drop below that threshold we tend to want to slack off for awhile and coast a little. Problem is - we coast back to that threshold weight and then comes that shame and guilt knocking on the door!
I can't tell you how tomorrow will be. Yesterday I was right at 1800 calories. Today I am probably right there again - about to go decipher that. Tomorrow? I hope to do the next right thing. There are traps, there are pitfalls and sneaky little games I play.
It's a choice. I pray for strength that goes beyond what I am capable of - I know I am susceptible to the traps. It's gonna be a fight. Hang onto your hat!
That's all! Thanks Ya'll!