{{[ The Wait of Weightloss ]}}

News Flash:  I gained back 4 pounds last weekend.  I didn't want to post about it until I had figured out just what that cost me.  It cost me 4 days.  On superbowl weekend I tried a little experiment, dangerous I know.  I decided to let myself eat what I wanted, within reason, for the weekend.  I had a big ol breakfast on Sunday morning, some cheese dip, some tostadas and gaucamole with the superbowl.  I can't remember what we ate on Saturday but it wasn't my usual lean meat and grains. 

So what did I learn?  That even with exercise and very healthy eating, it took me 4 days to clear out one weekend of letting go.  Now, I am not beating myself up for this - I refuse to do that - even if I gain 10, 20, 30 pounds - I don't want to ever beat myself up for it.  It is what it is - enough said. 

I wanted to see what would happen if I took off weekends and let it go.  4 pounds happened.  Okay, now that I know - I have a choice.  I can go backward every weekend and spend the week struggling to overcome the ground I lost with the weight I gained.  Or I can find a way to power through the weekend and keep my mojo on it's forward roll.....hmmmm....

I know I don't have the determination to keep relosing those 4 pounds every week.  So I better get it together and figure out how to make it through the weekend without killing my plan.  Maybe every weekend I try a new recipe (the right kind of recipe!)  I don't know.  I know I will figure it out eventually.  I am glad to know I have most of the tools but maybe a couple of them need sharpening or I need to add a new tool or two.  I am open to feedback - how do other folks make it through the weekend?  That has always been our "end of week - lets relax and have some soul food" time.

So the wait of weightloss.  It can be daunting.  It sure is for me.  I don't think I want to play the two steps forward, one step back game. Even if I never go backwards again - I still have a long road ahead of me.  I really can't afford to retrace my steps.  I am not even trying to rush myself, it is about healthy living, but at the same time, I am not going to let myself off the hook either. 

 I am not sorry I tried this.  I have to find my limits in my new life style.  I am thankful that I am honest with myself, that I am starting to see the cause and effect of eating and weight.  I am starting to see myself realistically in the mirror.  I am trying to break free from other people's misery and judgements.  Healthy weightloss takes time - it seems like a waiting game in some ways but it doesn't have to be.  I need to make this an active pursuit every day, and not a wait and see what happens game.  I am in control - if I stay mentally focused I am even more in control - of my goals and my life.  No longer a victim I don't need to wait.  I just need to move .... forward.  Am I going to be a victim, a stranger or an activist in my own life. 

I choose (c.)  ACTIVIST - let's go! 

Thanks Ya'll!

http://caloriecount.about.com/  Found this online looking for a calorie counter - I'm going to try it out and see if it is helpful - wanted to pass it along!

ps. if anyone wants to help me, I am trying to install a weight loss ticker on my blog but every time I try to add it to my gadgets it says something is wrong with my URL.  I'm stuck!


  1. Yep, you saw the reality. And now you know you can't say you didn't know if it happens again. ;)

    The new recipe thing would be a great idea.

  2. well it's cool to know, that two days of over doing cost 4 days of working hard.
    A learning experience and that is what a new life style is all about. You're doing well. I've ready quite a bit tonight and I'd say your learning very well.


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