News Flash: I gained back 4 pounds last weekend. I didn't want to post about it until I had figured out just what that cost me. It cost me 4 days. On superbowl weekend I tried a little experiment, dangerous I know. I decided to let myself eat what I wanted, within reason, for the weekend. I had a big ol breakfast on Sunday morning, some cheese dip, some tostadas and gaucamole with the superbowl. I can't remember what we ate on Saturday but it wasn't my usual lean meat and grains.
So what did I learn? That even with exercise and very healthy eating, it took me 4 days to clear out one weekend of letting go. Now, I am not beating myself up for this - I refuse to do that - even if I gain 10, 20, 30 pounds - I don't want to ever beat myself up for it. It is what it is - enough said.
I wanted to see what would happen if I took off weekends and let it go. 4 pounds happened. Okay, now that I know - I have a choice. I can go backward every weekend and spend the week struggling to overcome the ground I lost with the weight I gained. Or I can find a way to power through the weekend and keep my mojo on it's forward roll.....hmmmm....
I know I don't have the determination to keep relosing those 4 pounds every week. So I better get it together and figure out how to make it through the weekend without killing my plan. Maybe every weekend I try a new recipe (the right kind of recipe!) I don't know. I know I will figure it out eventually. I am glad to know I have most of the tools but maybe a couple of them need sharpening or I need to add a new tool or two. I am open to feedback - how do other folks make it through the weekend? That has always been our "end of week - lets relax and have some soul food" time.
So the wait of weightloss. It can be daunting. It sure is for me. I don't think I want to play the two steps forward, one step back game. Even if I never go backwards again - I still have a long road ahead of me. I really can't afford to retrace my steps. I am not even trying to rush myself, it is about healthy living, but at the same time, I am not going to let myself off the hook either.
I am not sorry I tried this. I have to find my limits in my new life style. I am thankful that I am honest with myself, that I am starting to see the cause and effect of eating and weight. I am starting to see myself realistically in the mirror. I am trying to break free from other people's misery and judgements. Healthy weightloss takes time - it seems like a waiting game in some ways but it doesn't have to be. I need to make this an active pursuit every day, and not a wait and see what happens game. I am in control - if I stay mentally focused I am even more in control - of my goals and my life. No longer a victim I don't need to wait. I just need to move .... forward. Am I going to be a victim, a stranger or an activist in my own life.
I choose (c.) ACTIVIST - let's go!
http://caloriecount.about.com/ Found this online looking for a calorie counter - I'm going to try it out and see if it is helpful - wanted to pass it along!
ps. if anyone wants to help me, I am trying to install a weight loss ticker on my blog but every time I try to add it to my gadgets it says something is wrong with my URL. I'm stuck!