When on a diet or healthy eating plan I always get little cravings. For me they are not the sweets that most people crave but the salty, chips, hashbrowns, rich-cheesy Mexican dishes - things like that. I really can't afford to write about cravings too much because thinking about them only makes the cravings grow and leads to action. I choose to ignore them and discard those cravings as soon as they come into my mind. If I am going to eat a high calorie meal I am trying very hard to plan on it and adjust around it. I don't want to start making small concessions that lead to more and more concessions - better just to keep the door shut - and locked. I want to pursue other cravings...the healthy kind.
One positive craving that I have been experiencing - the craving for excellence. There have been times in my life when I pursued excellence in various areas. WARNING: SOMETIMES THE PURSUIT OF EXCELLENCE CAUSES ME TO PUT ON MY PERFECTIONIST/CONTROL FREAK GEAR. That being said, I do believe I can pursue excellence and not go to the absolutes that become - me setting unrealistic goals and berating myself for not meeting them.
This is where I am going with this...Back before all this new life plan started up I bought a subscription for Runner's World from the neighborhood boy selling magazine subscriptions to make money for his school. I know right, rather optimistic of me :) but it was a in a moment of excellence, thinking I can do better and I'm going to do better. Well the magazines started pouring in about the same time that the layoff and subsequent life force shift occurred. When I read their stories, and see so many people my age who are just now starting their healthy life, or resurrecting it after burying it in the child-rearing years - I am so inspired. I am not alone.
So, my quest for excellence could come in the form of a string of 5K's where I beat my 15 minute mile. It might materialize into a half marathon or even a full marathon. I am still thinking this over. I am also considering the price I will have to pay, and the price my family will have to pay. There is no excellence that does not require sacrifice.
But let me think about what I am sacrificing - time spent goofing around on the computer with Farmville and Scrabble? Time spent stagnant in front of the t.v.? Time away from family while I am out training? (Well they are definitely old enough to handle that.) Healthy meals versus pizza? I don't think I am losing out here. I don't think the fam would be losing. In fact they would see a mom who crossed the finish line with determination and "changed my stars", to quote a corny line from a corny movie some of my family loves.
This is a thought that is just forming. A craving that has just begun. I don't know yet where it will take me but it does have me dreaming and scheming and hoping for possibilities that I had once given up on. So when it comes to cravings...serve me up a big ol' bowl of excellence. That sounds so good....