1.18.2011

Beginning Anew

It has been Janurary 18th for four minutes and I am trying to remember all the cool things I thought I would say earlier, when I didn't have time to blog.  This blog is for me, about me and therefor may seem extremely self-indulgent but hey - that is what all this social network stuff is about anyway.  Besides, I have a higher purpose - I am trying to change my life and if someone else is inspired or just realizes how stupid this is and learns from my mistake then all the better. 

I am trying right now to think of my family.  What would I think if they were blogging about personal stuff?  A little exposed I think.  With that in mind, I will try not to expose too much or make too many typos.

The bottom line, I am overweight.  I am approaching 50 and I feel terrible most of the time.  I became depressed a few years ago, mostly due to circumstances, but maybe a little to do with my age and waning hormones as well, and began an eating spree that has lasted far too long with too few pauses for air.  Now I am depressed because I am fat.  It has become a vicous and insane cycle!!!!!!!!!!

Sooooooooooooooo,.................I am going to do something about it.  And, to keep myself honest, I am going to blog about it.  But, if I quit blogging and go back to eating those yummy frozen eggrolls, I am not going to beat myself up.  This is about loving myself enough to try and enough to forgive myself if I fail. 

So there.  First entry.  Please don't comment if all you can say is nasty, unhealthy stuff.  Who needs that?

4 comments:

  1. Kim,

    It's nice to see someone being supportive about themselves! I am with you, I'm going to follow your blog, and I can't wait to read about your progress. It's not about weight, it's about feeling good emotionally and physically. You can do it!!

    Meredith

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  2. No nasty or mean comments here! I know the feeling of "just starting out" all too well. I have been at this weight loss thing for years (dropped 70lbs, got pg, gained every pounds back and am now starting over) and I can tell you that the blog network has been instrumental in my journey. Not only reading them but writing them. If you're looking for some inspirtation, I have a great blogroll and if you check back in my archives of 2006 you can see where I started with my blog and kind of go from there.

    And you know what, you may go back and eat one of those yummy eggrolls, we all have done that, but the difference now is now you'll (hopefully) come here and blog about it, what happened, how it made you feel, how you may deal with it better in the future, and you'll have a whole "follower" list of other readers who will understand and cheer you on. You've never had that before I bet!

    Best wishes on your journey. Pop over to my blog every now and then and I'll do the same.

    Sarah

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  3. p.s. you're blog, your rules, if you get negative hurtful comments, delete them and don't bat an eye!

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