It has been Janurary 18th for four minutes and I am trying to remember all the cool things I thought I would say earlier, when I didn't have time to blog. This blog is for me, about me and therefor may seem extremely self-indulgent but hey - that is what all this social network stuff is about anyway. Besides, I have a higher purpose - I am trying to change my life and if someone else is inspired or just realizes how stupid this is and learns from my mistake then all the better.
I am trying right now to think of my family. What would I think if they were blogging about personal stuff? A little exposed I think. With that in mind, I will try not to expose too much or make too many typos.
The bottom line, I am overweight. I am approaching 50 and I feel terrible most of the time. I became depressed a few years ago, mostly due to circumstances, but maybe a little to do with my age and waning hormones as well, and began an eating spree that has lasted far too long with too few pauses for air. Now I am depressed because I am fat. It has become a vicous and insane cycle!!!!!!!!!!
Sooooooooooooooo,.................I am going to do something about it. And, to keep myself honest, I am going to blog about it. But, if I quit blogging and go back to eating those yummy frozen eggrolls, I am not going to beat myself up. This is about loving myself enough to try and enough to forgive myself if I fail.
So there. First entry. Please don't comment if all you can say is nasty, unhealthy stuff. Who needs that?